I have a friend who 99% of the time never makes it to the appointment time we agreed on. This annoys me every time when he’s late and this feeling has grown on me more and more. One day while I’m waiting for him (again), I decided this is enough. I’m going to get this out of my head. This has been too long.

I started asking myself, OK, let’s see, are there any times where I wanted him to come later than appointment time? Yes… when I’m about to be late as well. When I know I’m going to be late. I wish he’s late as well (but of course be there like 1 minute earlier than him!)… OK,are there any times where I wanted him to come earlier than appointment time? Yes… when I’m over estimate traffic or when I finish my things sooner than I expected, I don’t want to wait, I just want him to be there as well…

so, it’s not about the appointment time, it’s about me!

If I’m there sooner or earlier than appointment time, I wanted him to be there too. If I’m right on time, I wanted him to be there as well and if I’m late, yes, I wanted him to be late as well! so there’s no appointment time, it’s only my time. I will be happy only on my terms. I’m will be happy only when I’m ready to see him when I’m ready to meet him.

I think more into this. When I’m early and have to wait for him. I don’t really like it but I can’t say anything because it’s not an appointment time yet. Even he comes on time, I still don’t like that I have to wait but I can’t blame anyone. He didn’t anything wrong. But when he’s late that’s where I have someone to blame. He’s just happen to be the only person that I can blame on…

There’s no on time for me… there’s only “my time”