After I realized that the “reward” that I deserve is not really a reward after all (previous blog), now I start to look at the purpose of having to finish those tasks.

When I work everyday for 7 to 8 hours a day, why do I do it? I gained money out of it. I need the money to pay mortgage, utility bills, buy foods, and other expenses. Did I get paid from doing the work? Yes. So, isn’t that good enough reward? Isn’t that the original purpose why I need to work? Yes. Then, what is the purpose to sit on a couch and watch Netflix after work for? Then I realize that the thinking behind I deserve a break came from not realizing why I am doing the 7 hours of work in the first place. I don’t know what the goal was. All I could think of is “I don’t want to do it. It sucks. I don’t see a benefit doing this. Now that I did it, even though I don’t want it… I have done something good without me ripping any benefit. So… the world needs to give me a reward – just to be fair.” Okay… seriously after I said, wrote and typed that last sentence… I sounded stupid. 😀

Same thing with the hike. I did the hike to get some work out. Having to hike 4 miles, my body had burned calories needed in order to work out. That’s already a reward. Why do I need to sit down then? Just rest after you finish the hike, to restore some of the energy.

And the diet? It becomes more obvious. The psoriasis subsided. Isn’t that a reward on itself? That’s the purpose of the diet. It is for me to get healed. And to loosen up my diet is actually going backward, pulling me away from the original goal.

From all these examples, I realized one thing clearly. To be consistent in anything I do, I need to have a goal in mind. A goal that I understand how to reach or at least know how to find the way to reach it. The goal that I am capable to reach and keep that goal in mind whenever I do the work. Keep going and keep looking at the two things:

The journey that I have taken to arrive at this point. This will push me to not stop until it is done. Otherwise, the journey is wasted.
The goal that I have. “Almost” does not cut it. Taking it easy will only prolong the time for me to reach the goal. If it is not finished, it is not done.