“I Deserve It” – Consistency

July 5, 2018

After I realized that the “reward” that I deserve is not really a reward after all (previous blog), now I start to look at the purpose of having to finish those tasks. When I work everyday for 7 to 8 hours a day, why do I do it? I gained money out of it. I need the money to pay mortgage, utility bills, buy foods, and other expenses. Did I…

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My Mom and I Part 4 — The Middle Path

May 17, 2018

As a recap: This blog is a continuation of the last in which I discovered gratitude for my mom after re-considering my memories of her. It was an exercise in which I made an effort to recall Mom’s good qualities as an antidote to my previous perspective which was to focus on negatives only. With my heart all mushysoft with gratitude for my mom, a troubling question came to mind —…

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The Eight Worldly Conditions

April 12, 2018

After sharing my contemplations about value with Neecha, she offered me another homework assignment she thought might help me push my thinking a bit further. She told me to go and think about the 8 worldly conditions, how do they work, and what do they mean for all of us suckers who have already been born in this world? Before we get to the HW, a little Buddhisty Background might…

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So Long and Thanks to All the Fish

April 5, 2018

Ever since I was a kid, I wanted a fish tank. I’m not talking about the small bowl you throw a goldfish into, I am taking the mega fancy big tanks with the super colorful fish. My Mom used to take me to the fish store so I could stare in awe as a kid.  Each tank its own little world, pretty, and orderly and perfectly balanced. When I moved…

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ความสวย

March 8, 2018

เมื่อวันอาทิตย์ที่ผ่านมา ลูกสาวคนเล็กลุกขึ้นมาใส่ชุดกระโปรง หวีผมและใส่ที่คาดผมเรียบร้อยต่างจากทุกทีที่มักจะปล่อยผมกระเซอะกระเซิงและใส่ชุดนอนอยู่บ้านทั้งวัน เมื่อลูกเดินลงมาก็ทำท่าเขินๆ พอเราเห็นเราก็รู้สึกว่า วันนี้ลูกน่ารักจังเลยอยากให้ลูกแต่งตัวแบบนี้บ่อยๆ แล้วก็เอะใจว่า เอ้า! นี่ก็ลูกสาวเราคนเดิมหน้าตาเหมือนเดิม เพียงแค่แต่งตัวทำผมให้แปลกไป มันทำให้เรารู้สึกว่าคนคนเดิม น่ารักขึ้น สวยขึ้น ได้เลยรึ แสดงว่าความสวย ความน่ารักที่เราเห็น ไม่ได้เกิดจากรูปลักษณ์ของคนคนนั้นเพียงอย่างเดียวแล้วละสินะ

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QUESTIONS FOR MAE YO AND FURTHER THOUGHTS ON KARMA

December 21, 2017

After sharing the prior two contemplations with Mae Yo, I asked the following 3 questions for clarification. Mae Yo’s answers are in green below: Question Part 1) From my contemplation it seems that sometimes karmic debt is something we create through feelings and interpretations of our own actions. Sometimes however it seems to be initiated by others. Is this correct and if so then whats the balance–how do I reconcile these…

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KARMA AS SOMETHING GENERATED BY THE INTENTION AND INTERPRETATION OF OTHERS…

December 14, 2017

I was starting to feel like, “oh, I totally get this karma thing”, It’s something I create through my thoughts (you can read the last blog post). Then, Mae Yo comes out with a Youtube Q and A — Karmic Creditor — and I feel like “oh shit, I am totally karma screwed”. The video was about the power our karmic creditors can have over us and it made me realize I…

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KARMA AS SOMETHING WE CREATE THROUGH OUR THOUGHTS

December 7, 2017

I was reading a short story that got me thinking about Karma. The extra short version goes something like this… A woman was sitting on a train trying to read, when a man came, sat down next to her and started talking. She was busy, not interested in a conversation, and politely found a way to excuse herself. The story ends with this man committing suicide by jumping off the…

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Karmas a Bitch, But Only if You Are … J/K (Not Really)

November 30, 2017

Karma is one of those Bhuddisty topics that’s big, huge. Understanding it fully is equivalent to understanding the whole kit-n-kaboodle of how this world works, how we came to be born, the cycle we are stuck in and how to bring about its cessation. In other words, my details are pretty sketchy ;). Arguably it was way too big a topic for me at the time in my practice I…

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